Why I’m writing this: It’s strange, I’m an introvert and I always work from home, but this social distancing has been deeply unsettling. I feel trapped and cut off from the little social connections that make me feel part of a larger whole- commiserating with the coffee shop barista about the weather, smiling at people I pass in the street, chatting with parents at school pick-up. So I decided I would rebirth this old blog of mine and chronicle our life under social distance. I know that some people are struggling with much bigger and harder challenges, like keeping their families fed, or having to risk coronavirus exposure to keep working in essential services. Comparatively, my challenges are much smaller and less urgent. Still, I can only write what I know, and I hope that these entries will bring connection and comfort to those who are also feeling isolated. I imagine us like sailors stranded on different islands, sending messages to each other in bottles. I we...
Flowers in the light. I've been noticing that I feel less comfortable writing when I'm feeling "negative" emotions like anger or sadness. I'm trying to push through that and honor all of my feelings, putting into practice that they are all valuable and worth expressing. Today I'm in a sad place- all is not well in the world, and I feel it deeply. (My logical mind wants to chip in to mention that things are never well in the world and there are always bad things going on. I get it, logical mind. Now can you go organize some index cards over there while I feel my feelings? Thanks). The virus is like a tsunami inching along, day by day. I hate the slowness of it- not being able to just get it all over with at once. I hate the "off-ness" of everything- all the normal parts of life stopped. I miss my petty little complaints about having too many errands to run or soccer carpooling taking forever. I miss hugging my Grandma and my friends. ...
I'm not feeling cheerful. (There, I said it.) I've been feeling sad and weighed down recently. It's the combination of having to stay home, not knowing when this will end, and so many people getting sick and dying. So I'm making space for the sadness and grief, as much as I can. And at the same time, finding joy in little things. Like the little hippo (name tbd- any suggestions?) I made for Matt. He's very soft and much loved by all of us. I'm making a smaller one for Lucy now. And painting. These bright colors are magically wonderful. And this little elephant Clara made of legos over the weekend. Also, we went geocaching for the first time this weekend, and had a few fun adventures. People hide little tupperware with treasures and a log-book inside, and then note the GPS coordinates. You then try to find the cache, and can exchange treasures and sign the log book. We found one inside a hollow log (pic...
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